Working retail has completely taken over my summer.
I am a part time retail worker (an essential worker since I work at a hardware store). Still, with my schedule being literally all over the place and constantly disrupting my creative work flow (like blogging), it feels like I work full time.
At the beginning of the month, I filmed a little vlog of one of my six am work shifts, where I have to be awake at four am and in bed by nine pm.
Before you watch (if you decide to), here are some things seen in the video with a small explanation:
— Fortunately, on this particular day, my shift was only four hours. When I have to open, I have to get up at four am to be a semi-functioning human at work. Though, I did go back to sleep and was kind of running late. When I do have to be at work insanely early, I usually don’t have time to eat breakfast, so I grab one of the Breakfast Essential drinks and take tortilla chips to work for a snack.
— Before work, I sit in the parking lot and listen to a couple of songs to get my blood flowing and good energy up. For this particular morning, it was “Scared to Live” and “Heartless” by The Weeknd.
— As I say in the video, I try not to be a mad/angry person (because I genuinely think it doesn’t get you anywhere in life), but a coworker, who is half a step above me in the retail hierarchy and has no real power but tries to act like she can control everybody because she has not fully accepted crap that has gone down in her personal life (there’s some serious tea there), really pushed my buttons. To calm me down, I like to listen to twenty one pilots, so I listened to “Level of Concern.”
— On my way home from work, I was followed by a cop from the parking lot of my job to the county border, which did nothing to ease the anxiety that has been at an all-time high since May 25, 2020. I literally went below the speed limit and did whatever I could to make sure he didn’t pull me over. When I crossed over into the county I live in, he turned around. I pulled into a grocery store parking lot to calm myself down and remind myself that my life matters; Black Lives Matter.
— Whenever I get home from work, I have to shower immediately (because as some people choose not to believe, there is still a Pandemic happening). After I showered, I discovered something was wrong with our fridge, and since I was home alone, I didn’t know what to do; I am still learning how to adult.
— I spent a large portion of the afternoon hanging out with a few family members who came over and worked on a few different projects I will reveal throughout the rest of the year.
— Since I had another six am shift the next day, I had to be in bed before nine pm and asleep at nine thirty.
Can you see the exhaustion in my face?
In the midst of battling a ridiculous part time schedule, I’ve been working on a few bigger projects, working behind-the-scenes for the Movement and trying to take care of myself and mental health.
Blogging accidentally got put on the back burner in the midst of everything, and I want to thank you for your patience and continuing to stick it out with me.
Be you. Be true. Fight for what’s right. Make smart decisions.